So I was thinking, what if they have talked already? What if Rae took him up on his offer to be her chauffeur and they’ve spent a lot of time together over the last week or so, just talking. In the car, at the hospital, at her house, at his house when she can’t stand the hospital or her house another minute longer. What if she’s finally told him about her time in hospital, and about Tix and how she let her down. About her mum, and her dad and about what was going on all the time Finn didn’t see her and why she had to disappear. She tells him about Liam and why she thought he was a superhero at first until she realised that he was just another way for her to hurt herself.
They talk about Finn’s mum, and his nan and how he feels a little lost most of the time and why he’s so unhappy. Not all the reasons why of course. It’s all important stuff and it’s needed to be said but the one thing they most definitely do not talk about is them. This re-connection feels really fragile and tentative right now and neither of them wants to fuck it up. It’s best to just get back to being friends. The romantic stuff is too big a deal to think about just yet. But Finn’s spent the whole of the two hour drive back from picking up his stuff from his uncle’s thinking about nothing but, so when he walks into the pub that night and she’s the first thing he sees, the only thing he ever sees really, he knows that it’s time.
He needs her in his life and if they can only be friends he’ll accept that but there have been glimpses, haven’t there? Signs that she still feels the same about him and that’s enough to get him hoping. He hasn’t pushed it before now because while he doesn’t fully understand it - he honestly doesn’t think he’ll ever really understand how she can’t see how fucking brilliant she is - he has an idea now of what she’s been dealing with because she’s finally letting him see all the broken bits of her. Even though he knows she’s petrified that it will, it doesn’t change anything for him. He still loves her. She’s who he wants and he knows now that if he wants her, he has to say something, she needs to hear the words. He has to confront her with his feelings and about hers, so with his heart in his throat he takes a deep breath, looks her in the eye and says, “I just… wondered if we could talk… you know, about you and me…?”
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